忸怩

じくじ【忸怩】

¶ → …とは忸怩たる思いだ

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じくじ【忸怩】

●(内心)じくじたる bashful; abashed; ashamed; embarrassed

・顧みて内心じくじたるもの[思い]がある have (some) shameful memories (of the past); have incidents in one's past that one blushes to remember

・じくじたらしめる put sb to shame; make sb ashamed of himself; embarrass.